There is a time for everything. Each season brings a wind of changes, each change is an aid for our growth. With changes are a mixture of good and bad and it is up to us on how we react to both. For me personally I have found that a lot of changes that occur in my life happen in a sort of cycle. This cycle continues throughout the year, keeping life balanced and making me put everything in perspective. You really cannot have good without the bad. Very similar to a lot of Chinese beliefs such as yin yang. Yin yang is the nature of opposites that cannot live without the other; interdependent. This is light and dark, good and bad, the workings of opposites in our world and the people in it. Yin yang is actually one of the philosophies I have always loved and ressonated with, just from the way my life has been as well as seeing how others lives turned out. I recently took this silly quiz to determine if I was more yin or yang. Looking at the description of personality types under each I thought I was more yang, however in the end it came out that I was perfectly balanced. I never thought of myself as perfectly balanced. I probably wasn’t a couple years ago. That is where change comes in. My changes throughout the years helped me grow into this balanced person I never thought I would be. A lot of my balance comes from trial and error of finding what helps me stay sane in a way, as well as the hardships, daily inconveniences and the moments of pure joy and laughter spent with my loved ones.
I think there are a lot of great topics that can web off of the topic of balance and into other aspects of one’s life. It’s something I find fascinating and will touch on another time.
What I am leading up to is I am finally done with this semester! This semester felt like the longest and most of a struggle. I had to take a class in person, which I haven’t done since high school in 2013. I had to take it at a different college than the one I’m graduating from due to transportation and how far the other college is. This meant that I had to do twice the amount of work in applying for this semester as well as making sure they knew I was transferring the credit. I had one of my online classes cancelled due to me being the only one signed up! Which was also the class that was linked to my internship, so while I took on an internship (that was an amazing experience for me) it wasn’t counting as a credit. I also needed to set up childcare for my son while I went to my course in person. All of this caused confusion between the colleges, them losing some of my paper work and having to resend everything multiple times, which took up most of my August. Then came the car troubles, my car broke down on my way home from class. I pulled over just in time because I felt it coming. I started walking with my son, planning on getting to the police station that wasn’t far, when I got a ride. Then there was a lot of confusion and annoyances with getting our new car, which is a long story, and I had to take the bus to school a lot. Today was supposed to be my official last day ever of college. Unfortunately they called to tell me I still have one more class I need, the one that cancelled. Initially they gave me a replacement course, come to find out that only replaced the internship and now I go back in January and won’t be done until May 10th. So while I am annoyed, I also am taking it as it is. I want my degree and I am so close still. It’s only one class so it’ll be easy to do while I do everything else I have planned for the start of next year.
I could be completely pissed and angry about this with the colleges and while I am annoyed there’s not much that can be done especially in anger.
Everything that I have endured made me. It’s made me strong, wise, cautious, and intuitive. These changes specifically this year are all an affect on who I will grow to be still. It’s a beautiful part of life, being able to grow continuously, change over and over, learn new things and discover yourself.
You can look at change this year in a political view as well, because EVERYTHING AIDS IN CHANGE. So what happens to you personally as well as in the world to everyone is going to have an effect. Also with the year coming to an end and a new year coming, there’s always talk of change. Resolutions are made, more political changes to come and the goals we set ourselves. Remember it’s all about balance. Take the good and the bad. The bad will make The good that much better in light. It is the beginning and end of everything.